:: Monday, May 25, 2009 ::
眼泪你好，又见面了。。
心又再一次跌到谷底。。
一种无法挽回的感觉。。。
没办法了吗？
是吗？
没了。。。。。。。。。
--== 10:11 AM ==--
:: Sunday, May 24, 2009 ::
craziiii
shiok..... mjing frm 430pm - 3am.... 4rds = dropped dead on $$ & mentally..... zzz
gd nite.... 0_0
--== 2:59 AM ==--
:: Friday, May 15, 2009 ::
yest took s car to jurongeast interchange.. wat a wrong choice of station... it was 放工 timing so damn packed with ppl... but luckily managed to get in the train & grab a seat towards woodlands station.. mtg dear & frenz @ the taxi stand den get on the road to jb...
reach jb ard 7plus, went straight to holiday plaza to get games & discs.. i went to look for a leather cover for my ifone but it comes with a back cover which i alrdy haf... tink is a waste of $$ coz i got one for ard 30bucks... waste $$ leh.. heartpain... even thou malaysia one cheap cheap lah... but still.... maybe next time when i go in jb again den i buy... wahhahahha
shopped ard, den when we are ready for dinner, it was already 9plus... didnt even noe its already so late... damn hungry when we reach 大马花园 for our fav seafood.... ordered buttered clayfish, sambal kangkong, cereal prawns, gonggong, mixed veg, satay... e gonggong not v nice coz hard to tke out the meat... damn full thou... aft dinner go pump petrol den back to sg liao... stucked @ the sg custom for v long time... i duno exactly hw long coz i dozed off.. haha.. nxt stop i knew was @ dear's workg place to take back his bike.. i noe we reach sembawang @ ard 1130pm... den dear chiong back home, bathed & by the time i hit the bed is 1230am... tired..............
--== 8:59 AM ==--
:: Tuesday, May 12, 2009 ::
im back from genting... yeah... so damn fun...
took bus on 07th @ 1030pm @ lavender mrt dere... board bus, pluggin earpiece, play music & dreamland i went... reach genting highlands ard 6am, checked in den go casino... went cable car riding, den casino again, den dinner... keep returning to hotel to rest so quite wasted on the 1st day.. 2nd day morning woke up quite earli, go buy ticks for theme park den go for breakfast b4 gg for the games... alot of ppl xia... regretted didnt go for the games in the 1st day... told myself on friday morning (08th) that i will take the spaceshot if i kena retrench.. however no news so didnt go take in the end.. hahaha.... but quite regreted didnt go try the ride.. shld be fun... looked for 3 games rides & thus dis cover almost the whole of themepark coz cant find.. haha... when finally found the rides, find ourselves dumb coz its @ the same place... -_- 3rd day mrning woke up @ 10plus, go for breakfast den go collect our ticks to go home... dun really wish to leave coz of the cooling weather.. sure gonna miss the weather... haiz....
reach sg on sunday evening ard 730pm, ant's frenz surprised him @ Lavender mrt station den go East Coast for dinner to celebrate his birdae... mi & dear also surprised him coz we said bye to him yet find us back @ lavender mrt... went to east coast park Beach Cabana for dinner & sum drinking.. went home ard 11plus (i tink)...
monday no work (company shutdown off inlieu Vesak), woke up at 9plus.. nua a bit den go out..
went to cck 2nd building wanted to settle dear's carpark fines. found out can actually be done online so went back to dear's dad stall for brunch... den went his hm for some tv watching due to raining... when rain stops, went to vicom @ batok for dear's bike inspection before goin to chevrons to buy sunglasses.. so sad the shop renovating, not ready till 15may... sianz...
went to mit dis coupls frenz @ imm for dinner & short shopping... sitting @ BK deciding wat movie to watch, den dear surprise me with a new APPLE IPHONE..!!!! im so hapi & so heartpain for the money he spent... almost cried.... den dear told mi he went genting is to win $$ to get mi iphone... oh im so touched.. (luckily he won $$, hahahaha... & luckily we came back on sun, if not i will haf to wait till aug for my birdae pressie....)
dis wk im havin tues blues... coz nid to go back work aft a "long" holiday.... (still missing the cooling weather)... but today quite hapi coz big boss terminated the execution... at least dun haf to worry for the next 3mths.. haha...
--== 1:48 PM ==--
:: Thursday, May 07, 2009 ::
八点十五，还没到我的办公桌就有消息说大老板要开始"杀人"了。
八点半到canteen集合。电脑还没开就得下去受刑了。
开始先说说公司怎么对付H1N1病毒，然后就开始说去年到今年半年的成绩。
最后说了一句:"i guess i will not see some of you in the next few days..."
回到座位不久就有人跟我说已经有几个牺牲者离开了。
快吧?! 还真的杀人不眨眼。。
然后接下来一整天，整个公司静悄悄的，根本没心情做工嘛。
只好乘午餐好好平复一下心情。
怕被叫去而没有时间说再见，已经跟几个比较好的同事先说说话。
换换手机号码，好保持联络。即使今天没事，也不敢担保明天没事。
听说会在这个星期杀完，因为大老板下星期不在。
那我不就连死了都不知道?! o_O
--== 12:47 PM ==--
:: Wednesday, May 06, 2009 ::
昨，某人没来。其实我也有点不想来，不过还是来了。
某人这星期开始很忙，没有多余的时间见到某人。
写好短讯想给某人，最后还是没传。。((saved to drafts， delete shortly after that))
某人要[我们]变成[干XX]，我还没回答某人。
多一个[干XX]其实也没什么不好，多一个人把"爱，饭，时"分给我。
又可以让我欺负。嗯不错，可以考虑。
今，听说公司又要来个大屠杀。可怕。恐怖。噩梦。
我没心情出国了啦。。提心吊胆的。这星期五会出笔录，不过我不在。
不知道会不会中枪? 那我该不该先把东西搬回家呢?
今天又没什么胃口、午餐也还没吃、心情还是一样的。。。槽
--== 1:10 PM ==--
:: Monday, May 04, 2009 ::
又滴了
最近觉得眼泪没价值了.....
为何...
...我那么傻
...我那么蠢
...我要一头栽下去
...我会不知不觉地付出这么多
...我放不下??
我
...
....
.....
......
又哭了
控制不了的哭了....
每当我听到，眼睛就湿湿的..
每当我看到，眼睛就湿湿的..
每当我想起，眼睛就湿湿的..
告诉我自己不能哭，不能让眼泪流下..
没想到我是这么的软弱，脆弱的吧?!
我自己也觉得可笑...
时间会冲淡一切吗？
会的，我告诉我自己.. 会的!!
该是时候整理我的心情，烦恼，困扰，一切，一切..
我想放下.. 我想回到以前.... 快乐，自闭...
做快乐的我 : 无忧无虑, 永远都不把烦恼放在心上超过一天的那种...
做自闭的我 : 不闻不问，活在自己的世界里的那种...
我可以吗? 我做得到吗?
给我几天的时间，一定可以的...
秘密 : 我抽烟了 我喝酒了.....
--== 8:54 AM ==--
:: Sunday, May 03, 2009 ::
我有一个(过分的)要求, 不知可否会实现......
实现不了的。。。。。。
--== 9:57 PM ==--
:: Saturday, May 02, 2009 ::
晴天霹雳
i got a bad news from someone dearing..
one news tat set me wondering..
one news tat change my moods within a sec..
one news tat affect my moods over the weekends..
one news tat bring tears to my eyes..
i can skip the suppers, only wishes for occasional desserts..
i wish nth affect the relationship..
is my wishes too much to ask for??
--== 3:05 AM ==--
